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SoakedInSynth​.​Zip

by Superdestroyer

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Matt DeMello (himself) No one does what Superdestroyer does. Not in emo, not in DIY, not in synth pop, not in the history of irony. The songs are short and pointless, like life - and that's the point. Don't sleep on this one of a kind songwriter/production wunderkind.
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1.
Can you hear me? I've been coughing on the couch down in the basement, but the dim lights bring me down. So, just believe me when I say I want to come upstairs, 'cause I've been choking on my words down there. I'm just a cartoon demon. I come to poke your brain at night. More misunderstood than evil, I just get bored sometimes. And sure I hurt you, but isn't that just really hurting me? I'm the part of yourself you try to never see. I'm just a cartoon demon. I come to poke your brain at night. More misunderstood than evil, I just get bored sometimes.
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I call your line, it's late as fuck. I'm sorry if I woke you up. I need a little late night talk--a soothing voice to calm the buzz of the chemicals and molecules that repel and bond to make me feel all the gloom and existential dread. I'm sad as fuck and crying in my bed.
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The atoms in my body they are warring, yeah they're tearing me apart like the particles entangled with my body and the stars. Yeah they're spinning, yeah they're moving in a mirrored but opposite direction across the universe. I think they've got the right idea to get as far away from me as they can.
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Sometimes I feel like I am falling down a hole filled with muck and gunk and nasty stuff and no matter how hard I claw, I can't seem to escape it. I'm sliding farther down the harder I try. I'm getting lost in the process, I'm getting tripped up in a world that lacks detail. It's all brown to me. And yet I see sunlight. And yet I have flowers growing down here next to me. I'll become one with the worms. I'll become one with the dirt and the flowers and the earth. It will swallow me up and I will slowly disintegrate into nothing. Into something. Into the very things that create the stars and everything that we see. In that way, I guess it's inescapable that we all are just kind of living under the false pretense that we are actually individuals with agency. Maybe we are just floating through programming that makes us think that we've got something we have to chase and fulfill so that we don't pay attention to the fact that it's all kind of pointless. Look around you, everything's burning. Look around you, everything's pointless. Nothing has meaning. Look around you. It fucking sucks.
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Cherry Flavor masks the poison taste. Bitter shot right to my face. I don't want to be awake. I don't want to have to taste all the bad decisions made. You said "this might be the place where we rot and fade away". I don't want to have to think I want more cherry flavor.
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I've been hovering 5 feet off the ground since the séance we held at your grandma's house. Drunken chanting and firelight bouncing around. You said, we could see places that we'd never been, luxurious spaces and fabulous friends. We could find the joy that eluded us then. Life's like a slow leak you ride on until it's flat. One day you're empty with no way of getting back.
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A spontaneous fit of joy just washed over me. I don't know if I enjoy it or if it just gives me anxiety about all of the things that will go wrong in my life at any moment. Oh my god, my fucking life never stops--I'm always in it. And it's a living hell to be trapped in my brain, always thinking the same thing it's on a loop telling me what will go wrong. I don't think that I've had a moment of peace in months. And it fucks up my sleep. I need some mental release. I need a little relief. I need a minute for me.

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"It’s a genuinely affecting mini-album, and the fact that I’ve looped these sixteen minutes over and over without feeling bored once is a testament to Superdestroyer’s talent. His album flows together so well, with each song feeding into the other seamlessly. His bite-sized ventures into the sweeping emotional hell that is “being alive and feeling” are visceral bursts of hook-filled catharsis."

-Jenn Coulter, Left of the Dial

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released June 30, 2023

Written and performed by Superdestroyer
Recorded at Existential Dread
Mixed by Daniel Zasadny
Mastered by Kris Crummett
Album Art by Superdestroyer

Thanks to the the LGR family, Curtis Reeves, Ashlie, Zac Djamoos, Full Blown Meltdown, Gregory Johnson, and everyone else who listened to the album, gave feedback, and generally helped with the process of recording this album.

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